I'm possessed (modified)

I’ve decided that the toughest verse in the Bible is Luke 12:33. In particular, the first sentence thereof.

³² "Fear not, little flock, for it is your Father’s good pleasure to give you the kingdom. ³³ Sell your possessions, and give to the needy. Provide yourselves with moneybags that do not grow old, with a treasure in the heavens that does not fail, where no thief approaches and no moth destroys. ³⁴ For where your treasure is, there will your heart be also. (Luke 12:32-34)

Sell your possessions, and give to the needy. Now, how do I avoid the plain meaning? Let's fire up a few of tried-and-true escape mechanisms:

1) Is this in a parable? No.

2) It applies only to the apostles. I don't think so. That's a stretch.

3) Can this be cast as figurative? Does it really mean: "Do not hold on to your possessions. Be willing to give them up at a moment’s notice, should they be of use to God or the church. Do not make idols of your possessions. Do not value your self-made kingdom more then the kingdom of God." Can it be taken that way? No.

I would like it to mean (3). I could convince myself that I was commendable in that regard. But does it actually say that? No it doesn’t. It states:  Sell your possessions, and give to the needy.

I am so out of compliance. It is not because I am materialistic, because I’m not. Many sins I suffer from, but materialism is not among them, at least not in a big way. I'm reasonably confident that your private gossip about brother David H when you know you shouldn’t be gossiping would not be: “Boy, is he is materialistic.” Or if it is, I'd honestly be surprised. ¹

My discomfort is all about what I would call, in my spin room, responsibility while others might call it a lack of trust. I am building a bigger barn (which has gotten considerably smaller in recent days) called "retirement" and "trust fund" because I have responsibilities. I have to think about my disabled son. I have to provide for him for when I am at room temperature. I am anxious for him. You can say: God will take care of him to which I say: And how do you know that what I am doing is not God’s way of taking care of him?

But I am not selling my possessions and giving to the needy. Nor am I likely to live up to that standard. Ever. And that’s a real downer.

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¹ Hmm. Interesting question. What do you reckon people are gossiping about you? I've been through a lot lately; ecclesiastically speaking I had a rather spectacular fall from grace. I don't think I'd actually want to know what people are saying about me, or thinking about me. And I feel uneasy just contemplating the matter.